Time for some quality adulting

So I keep having these moments when I realize I need to put on my grown up pants.  Today one hit in a big way.

I've needed two teeth out for a while.  Well three, really, but at the moment one is stable.  Actually 30 is stable, 31 and 14 are broken, sensitive as fuck and need to go.  I've been debating a root canal on 14, I even had it evaluated at an Endodontist.

Root Canal:

Pros -

• Save as much of the tooth as possible
• Seems very responsible
• Doesn't let anyone down about ruining my teeth
• Lets the dentists thing I'm making a carefully considered decision
• Allows to continue to magically think that it's resolving somehow

Cons -

• Expensive as fuck
• Might not be enough tooth left, meaning paying for a root canal and losing the tooth anyway
• Takes a remarkable amount of dicking around between two dentists to get the thing done.  It's already been a month and the dicking continues.
• Need to pay even more after the first of the year to get a crown

Extraction:

Pros -

• Very affordable
• Eliminates the pain right off
• Guaranteed solution to the problem

Cons -

• Admit that you lost a tooth.  Feel very guilty about losing a tooth even though it's not your fault.
• No magical thinking, this is very real 
• Sound like a coward.  Or impulsive.  Or something.
• Still need to figure out how to replace it later.  But later has a longer time allotment.

You see the problem here.  The pros for the root canal are all emotional, the pros for the extraction are all  practical.  So today I realized that *I* needed to stop dicking around, have the damage removed because it's not going to get better, and then figure out how to fix it in January when we have more insurance and more money.   I know my body and my budget, I just have to give up on hoping that this is going to magically go away and get it done.

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I spent today prepping my kitty cat to go back to work tomorrow.  We made sure she had several days of lunches in the fridge, I got caught up on the laundry, and so on.  And I worked on holiday gifts, because it's the season.  Between those two I filled up my day.


OK, project check time:

Goals:

• Kitty pillow - 2 rows/day
• Rose pillow - .5-1 round/day
• Love Paw pillow - 21 rows/day (I've converted this one to intarsia knitting)
• Granny's Heart pillow - 1 square/day
• Geometric Heart pillow - 1 square/day

And then I have my 9-patch, a tiger stripe and a plain one in the same colors, but those will happen after these if I have time.  Also, the Granny's Heart and Geometric heart are not priorities.

 Where am I currently?

• Kitty pillow - On track
• Rose pillow - On track
• Love Paw pillow - 1 day behind
• Granny's Heart pillow - 2 days behind
• Geometric Heart pillow - 4 days behind

So yeah.  But I will start to catch up now that life is settling down.  Knock on wood and all that.